Journal Entry

I took Whitney to her Wic appointment yesterday and as of right now she weighs 28 ibs 4 oz and in 34 3/4 inches tall. She is growing but not very fast just like her mom. Every time I go they always say ,"she is a lot smaller than most kids her age but I am not worried because she probably is just taking after her mom." I say, "we are not small we are fun sized!" Whitney has been developing her own way of talking as well, instead of saying "I don't know how to do that, " she says "I how know do that." I have corrected her so many times that I know she knows how to say it right but she is just sure that she is right. Lance is really getting a lot of personality. Yesterday while Berny was doing his workout and I was folding cloths he decided to put a rag on his head and run around. Then he would pull it of really fast and laugh so hard that he might have peed his pants if he were not wearing a diaper. He thought he was scaring us. I really thought it was funny when those stumpy little legs would get going so fast and since he had his head covered he would hit the wall or trip and fall on his face. But he would always think it was so funny and than he would pull the towel off and there would be that big Lance boy smile. Berny has been talking about farming again. He misses it a lot and that is making him think more about wanting to move back to Richfield if he gets the ISP job. I am split on the idea of going back to Richfield because on the one hand I really want to live on our ground. I want to farm it and have animals. I want to raise my kids in that kind of setting where they have to gather eggs, milk a cow, move pipes, ride horses, and farm our ground. But I really would miss being so close to my brothers and sisters. I love being able to go over to their house at the drop of a hat for games or just to hang out. I also loving being so convienient to babysit my neices and nephews. I want them to know me and it is nice that Whitney gets to see so much of her cousins. But both grandparent are in Richfield so I will be happy with whatever the Lord wants for us. Right now I am really excited about running. This will be my third week of training to the half marathon and I have not felt this way about something or about myself in a really long time. I am starting to feel mu competitive side come back to me. The part of myself that makes me want to get better and better at something everyday, and really work hard at it. Basketball was what did that for me before. But latley I have been getting a lot of fullfilment out of being able to run longer and faster distances everyday. I notice that everytime I run I feel like I am getting better. When I first started I ran 2 miles at about 5 miles an our and I was dieing the whole time. Today I ran 3 miles at 6.5 miles an hour and I felt great the whole time. The best I have done is 4 mile starting. the first 2 miles 5.5 mph and the last 2 at 6mph, with a 2 incline. And I felt great after doing that. I am now smaller that I have ever been and I feel healther that I have been in a really long time, I weigh 95 Ibs.